I realized that weight doesn't enter into my food decisions anymore. It kind of blew my mind, because weight drove every food decision for decades. It was the only thing that mattered, "How will this affect my weight?" And it wasn't just the food itself. Nutrition properties determined the food I chose, which would then determine my moral character and my weight: low-fat, low-carb, high-fiber, number of calories, grams of protein, net carbs, servings per meal, refeeds, fasting windows. It was all very complex!
Yesterday, it dawned on me that I wasn't thinking about any of that when I made my choices. It was questions like: How hungry am I? What flavors and textures are appealing? What will satisfy? How do I want to feel after I eat? For example, I briefly considered Panda Express as a dinner option but didn't want the greasy fast food feeling (sometimes I very much do!). I ended up making a veggie omelet with sharp cheddar and sriracha sauce, and then having a piece of leftover chocolate cream pie. That was exactly what I wanted. Hot, melty cheese, spicy, veggie textures, then cool, sweet, chocolaty pie. I thought about including an english muffin with the omelet, but then I'd have likely been too full for pie. Nothing about calories or carbs though, no moral quandaries regarding good/bad foods, no consideration for what one choice or another would do to my weight in the morning, because I don't get on the scale.
Wow! I can see how much things have changed. It's definitely a more satisfying and less stressful way to eat.