I had trouble letting go of that quiet underlying belief that everything was about my weight. Every new grocery store product label, every change in my workouts, sleep, illness, active day, rest day, stress at work, changes in meals, how will it affect my weight? I had taught my brain that we are to evaluate EVERY life event based on what the weight ramifications may be. We are to think about it a lot. It's very important. Eventually you realize how stupid and destructive it is. You try to say, "Oh, never mind, brain. We're not going to worry about that anymore." You find it's not so easy to turn off! It is possible though. I was doing pretty well just with intuitive eating, but between watching Tabitha Farrar videos and reading The F*ck It Diet, I've made some more huge leaps in leaving the weight focus behind. The most effective approach has been deliberately doing the exact opposite of what that diet voice tells me. If it tells me I need to move more, I take a nap. If it says, no brownies, I eat two. If it says I shouldn't have two slices of bread on that sandwich, I go ahead and grill the whole sandwich in butter. A grilled peanut butter and jelly is amazing!
You would think that doing the opposite of what "diet voice" says at every turn would result in endless weight gain, but that's an irrational fear. Nothing happened except I'm not crazy anymore, relatively speaking. LOL I'm more relaxed, more satisfied, less interested in food in general, and certainly not stress eating, binge eating, eating mindlessly, or gasping for food like when every waking thought was about eating less and weighing less.