I want to elaborate on what I said in Tonya's journal about how my processed foods versus whole foods ratio has shifted. I said:
My processed to whole foods ratio may be more like 40/60, or 30/70. I do eat mostly whole foods, but barely. It's not the 90% plants and animals I used to shoot for. Clean eating didn't agree with me at all.
It really didn't. The vibrant good health that was supposed to happen? It was more like being cold all the time, being constipated, having no energy, walking around with a painfully bloated belly, insomnia, anxiety, not particularly enjoying my food, cravings, weight struggles, bingey lapses, obsessing about food every waking moment. Woohoo! Clean eating!
I used to believe that thing that if you eat 90 percent unprocessed whole foods, 10 percent of the time, you can eat food you actually want. This was a recipe for crazy. The slightly more lenient 80/20 version of that still made me hysterical. I'd be trying to math out cheat meals, or track treats, or schedule them in weird ways. The overplanning didn't help my mindset at all. It kept me very focused on what I couldn't eat, or what I could only eat at certain times. Then the flip side of that was the default overconsumption of safe foods. If they were whole and unprocessed, they wouldn't make me gain weight, right? Oh, oops, wrong.
Crazy Matt Stone actually helped out a lot here by exposing me to the idea that I might physically feel a whole lot better if I ate some bread and butter once in awhile, or ice cream, or salt. I certainly did!
Then Intuitive Eating came along and reinforced the idea that I could be eating what I want every time I eat, not following any particular ratio or scheme. I was surprised to learn that I still want chicken and vegetables. I tend not to enjoy dry skinless chicken breast and plain steamed vegetables, but who does?
Flavor is pretty important. Left to my own devices, I still like meat, fish, eggs, fruits & veggies, nuts, seeds, beans, and whole grains just fine. I tend to especially like them with fat and processed carbs. :-)
Lean Habit #4 is Eat Mostly Whole Foods. I think I still do that, but like I said, barely, not by a landslide or anything, and definitely not every day or every meal. It's more like over time I do.
Today so far I have eaten: Most of a frozen pizza (with extra veggies on it), several spoonfuls of Ben & Jerry's Peanut Butter Fudge Core, half a bottle of Pepsi, another big piece of cold pizza, four Italian holiday/wedding cookies, and a bottle of kombucha. I can't even begin to pass that off as some kind of plan I'm following. LOL But it's exactly what I wanted. Later I will want a couple of tacos, chips & salsa, and more cookies.
It's not clean eating, or calorie counting, or special meal timing, or no snacking. It is eating what I want, when I'm hungry, and to satisfaction. Because I can always have whatever I want, and I can eat again whenever I'm hungry, I tend not to overdo it very often. There's no reason to overeat anymore, definitely no compulsion to do it, not like when I was feeling hungry and restrained from dieting.