From skwigg's journal:
My happy weight is 20 pounds heavier than my lowest adult weight, and 20 pounds lighter than my highest adult weight. All of it messed with my head. When you've been that thin, anything not that thin feels HUGE at first. And when you've gained 40 pounds in a year, WOW do you become skeptical of non-dieting and eating whatever you want. It has taken a lot of time and practice to un-diet my brain and un-skew my body image, but when I did, everything came back to center.