I'm wondering if part of this binging cycle has been related to tracking my food. I have been tracking my food and it's not really helping me right now. I am terrified but want to release the tracking this week. What I will do instead is plan out my meals/snacks loosely, eat healthy things, and connect to my body. I have lost this recently and I think it might be part of my problem. I am scared to do this but the tracking thing is not working right now. The problem is, if I gain weight doing this, I immediately go back to tracking. I'm a pendulum. The Middle Way would be to plan out healthy meals and snacks and eat when hungry. That will not make me gain weight. I will check back in later this week. Wish me luck.