Wanting to garner some thoughts on something i have been struggling with for years. I have a compulsive 10pm fruit salad and yoghurt compulsion that i cannot seem to break up from. Been recovered weight wise for almost a year and do ok with lunch and some food during the day but still find myself obsessing over my fruit bowl and night time eating. Since recovery i wake up in the night and eat. Its a habit now i am fully aware of and know that i am physically hungry at this time but cant figure out how to stop. Even if eat all my calories during the day i still compulsively want my fruit and that stops me from filling up during the day to allow for this. Being weight restored i eat about three times what i used to but checked in after lunch yesterday and realised i still never feel "full". At the end of every meal i still have that depression feeling that 'damn my food is over'. This is a bit of ramble but i would love to hear any experiences with night time eating and rituals that you had to break. I do recognise it is now some weird form of habit and comfort for me that i desperately need to break. I do follow Stephanie Buttermore and love the whole 'all in' thing but sadly cannot admit to being this free yet - i wish i could be but just cannot and an even though i eat a lot now and have gained weight truthfully i am still too painfully aware of everything i eat. Any thoughts or opinions would be so appreciated!

Hi Everyone Wondering what everyones thoughts are on Stephanie Buttermore's All In. I am finding it very inspiring.

Hi Ladies - I am after some advice. I am finally after many many years of ever exercising under eating vegan hell i am choosing recovery with the help of a wonderful therapist and support team. This site is amazing and i have followed Swigg for years and recently started binge listening to and watching Tabitha Farraar who i am really enjoying. I am conquering a few fear foods and releasing the gym obsession however i cannot stop calorie counting. I have no idea how to eat without those numbers. I always try to keep to 1300 however yesterday i hit over 2000 and the guilt i feel is so extreme. Guilt because i am still hungry and can only imagine how much i would overshoot if i wasnt counting. How on earth do people eat and not count? How do they stay a standard size. I want out of this mental prison so badly but just cannot stop. My Fitness Pal was such a bad idea for me and i just cannot release it. How did you overcome this if it was something you did? I would appreciate anything you could offer.