Thank you so much both Hayley and Skwigg :)
Hayley, good to know that your experience with the second pregnancy / nursing went better. I hope it will be the same for me, as I now realize just how unnecessary it was to stress and restrict myself thinking I would never lose the weight. I am now "back in shape" and I fully realize that, as you wrote, nothing is permanent. Pregnancy feels like forever but in retrospect it goes by fast.
Skwigg, thank you so much for sharing what works for you. I have never been good at meditating/ staying still (I even tried acupuncture and I could not stand waiting the full 30 min with needles all over my body unable to do anything, LOL). However, it is the same for me in that when I step back and analyze on my own thoughts, I can see that my mind is causing the drama (e.g. "if I eat this I will get fat”). The whole stepping back and choosing how I would rather react to the situation is so useful; I also try to do it with my toddler who is now starting to throw so big tantrums. I instinctively get angry, so I am trying really hard to remind myself that he behavior is (usually) not an emergency, so I can take a step back and breathe before I react. It can be applied to so many areas of my life!
Also, I love the idea of saying “Thank you for the nourishment.” Being grateful for the food we get to eat, for the body we have, our health…
Yesterday at work we got free croissants. We always get free croissants from a bakery on Mondays. I never eat them because I am usually not hungry when they are brought to us. And that’s the thing now, I am not restricting specific foods (I eat, candy, junk food etc.) but I am very much still on the “eat-only-when-hungry diet”. I NEVER EVER eat if I am not hungry and I don’t overeat. But yesterday I really wanted a pain au chocolat because it looked so good. So I had one with my coworkers even though I wasn’t hungry. I am not going to lie, I felt a bit guilty afterwards but I tried to shake it off and I did not let it affect my later food choices. I really want to start accepting that sometimes it’s ok to eat something simply because it sounds good, even though I might not be hungry.